Torn…
I’m seriously torn between what is right and what I want…
The moment I met a truly amazing person by the name of Bridgid Bibbens I decided I wanted to get myself a completely custom made electric violin. This was the instrument of my dreams! I was super stoked and I was saving up super hard. Then a couple of things happened and now I don’t know if I will ever get it.
My dad is the most amazing man in the whole entire world and for that I am truly grateful. He gives up everything he wants just so I can have the absolute best! I love him more than anyone and no one could ever come between us. Last fall he had to have another surgery performed on his neck due to some major problems. This year has been super stressful for him and I can tell. Money, my car wreck (caused by an evil person), his dad, and all the bills he’s worried about.
So in return I finally decided to get over myself and stop blowing all my money on clothes that I don’t need. I gave him money to see his dad in California. Paid a bunch of bills. Bought groceries. Paid for my own college classes. Recently just gave him more money to pay for electricity. I know it’s what’s right and what needs to be done. But I don’t know if I’ll ever have enough for my violin.
Now I can’t tell if I’m being selfish, spoiled or both.
